but there are those we fabricate.

I didn't want to blog today, had nothing to. But i came across something that set me off. So here I am.

I haven't written anything about how much i hate lies in this blog so here i am. I absolutely abhor liars. Even white-lies. I really can't take it. I don't get how people could just act nonchalant and be like 'oh whatever, ' when they come across someone fabricating stories. I really can't seem to understand how people can take it.

After, typing that sentence, i realised something. It was probably because they lie too. Humans lie. It's the truth. For some reason they can't not not lie. It's in their nature. But the thing is, imagine yourself being all truthful to a person, you tell them nothing but the truth but then they backstabbed you by acting truthful and telling you a story that can't or hasn't exist. It's really pathetic. What's worst? There are lies that can't even make sense. Liars that don't know how to lie. They lie through their teeth and tell us something else that can't connect to the previous lie.

Mocking me with their lies. Really?

I'm someone who can catch anyone who lies really easily. It's a gift i got, i guessed. It's so easy for me to see through someone. Many people are like an open book to me. But because of this, i don't have many friends. Or at least i guessed that's why. People lie to me, i see through them, relationship end. Simple.

Either that or all the people i've met and known are HORRIBLE liars.

It's not the truth that i don't lie. It's a little of an irony isn't it. haha. But i'll be honest, i'll never lie to someone who means something to me. A friend next to me, the one closest; the most understanding one. Name it. I won't lie to them. I can swear. And that's what hurts the most. They are the ones who have stories to tell, fiction to show. Not all, but there were a few particular ones.

And because they mean too much for me, it's hard for me to confront them. I sometimes just want to forget about it but i can't.

It's ironic how i say i lose friends because of that isn't it? Some of them, just aren't like a jelly beans i love the most. Some of them are just the eraser dusts on my table.

Why can't people be truthful? Why do i have close friends who lie to me when i'm trying an effort to be the most honest person to them. To be able to tell them any secret and ensure they won't tell anyone? To be sure that they will be able to remember the promises they made?

I have one of such. And i love oh so very much. She's the best person i've ever known.

Making promise, and she'll never forget. The prettiest darling i've ever known. She may not be a popular chick, may not be someone who has great connections. May not be someone who is always in the light.

She's a like a country lad entering a highschool in new york.

She's someone who will stick with me through thick and thin. Willing to talk back to teachers, willing to keep to her stand to protect me.

and she's the closest friend i have around with me.

At least, i know, she won't lie. She'll keep her promises. That she'll understand me. One day, someday, next time, she'll be the one who i'll get to see her get married and i'll be her child's godmother and still be the person who she talks to when she's bored. When she wants to rant about the world's most ridiculous things.

Someday, there'll be a day like this.

I cherish her so much. Even though we only know each other for this few years, she's gets to me the closest compared to any one.

She'll never forget me. And i'll never forget her. Never.

To the girl next door, that girl who lies to blatantly. That one who thinks i'm an imbecile, one who secretly mocks me within. One who think she's all that great. you, you are not. I promise myself, one day, i'll be there to mock you for what you are, to mock you with your lies. To show you, how long i've known your fabrications.

You think i've that naive ? I have an eye for words. I keep it in my mind, and when you say something different, it's registered in my mind. Calculative you may say, that part of me is for you.

The way you lie to me was a mockery to yourself. You should try lying to yourself- look into a mirror and lie to yourself. You look pathetic. " a rusted mirror reflecting nothing " , you are blinded by your own ignorance. And what do we have to contradict? "ignorance is bliss" as for this case, ignorance is nothing but your mocker. Stop being impetuous, think before you even try.

one day it's this, and another, it's of a completely different story.

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