wheeee~

okay hello.
people often, the bitter ones that is, prefer to think of the past as a rather odious time.
and i myself, well, there were pretty good times and yea, but our little subconsciousness just prefer to remember the unpleasant times more vividly.

i though, sometimes think the past is much better than the present or probably the future. and wait no, i don't want to retrogress, i just, never mind. the present is much much better now :)

so anyway,
i didn't exactly go through all my past memories. i just scanned through some items and objects and a wave of nostalgia and also the feeling of dysphoria wiggled through me.

primary school wasn't exactly pleasant for me. things here and there, hates everywhere. i wasn't much liked anyways. albeit this, i pulled through. the main thing is, today i travelled to a particular time, i was back in primary five.

Lots of changes happened when i was eleven. I wasn't exactly a gamer or an internet user, i didn't even know how to use google( sorry, i didn't even knew it existed ) all i know was yahoo mail, which my dad uses and neopets hahahaha,  my bro got me hooked on that. maybe i should visit it later, i got a limited edition pet hahaha (A HISSI),

But then, i met people who started blogging and i got hooked on it. You know, seeing how i was never much liked, i always turned to my blog and it felt cool having a personal online space then hahaha.

So anyway, after bothering some friends to help me with customising my blog and teaching me, i got into it.

What transported me to memory lane was the blogskins. If you didn't know there's a website for blogskins, and i visited my numerous previous accounts.

I'm a little proud and also pretty surprised. there were actually a pretty large number of people downloading my skins. And seeing the way my blogskins are (some) i realised i've became rusty with html codes.

Anyway,
i had really wacky dorky usernames like cjt, bubbletea-x, photography, bubbly something like that
hahaha, i was pretty much a wackdork, or maybe still am seeing how i'm actually making up words....

And i thought of the people who got me hooked on blogging. they weren't nice people, at least then. I think they are pretty alright now but, then, sigh, girls being girls, held a knife behind my back.

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and i remember, ahaha primary five was also the year where couple rumours start hahaha, okay, i didn't even know how it started. i guess i was pretty oblivious to my surroundings.
i remember my life then was just blogging, netball, and neoprints( although i absolutely abhor them, they always bring me to whitesands for neoprints )

alright this post is a little boring isn't it?

should i put in some dramas? naah, not yet. i'm not ready to tell everyone about it just yet.  i wrote one before, but i had to delete it. i felt too naked.

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now back to the present.
life has been pretty okay. i mean, okay never mind.
i can't type any more. the only thing on my mind now is, WHY THE HECK CANT NUTS BE JUST NUTS. HAHAHA IM SORRY HAHAHAHAHAHA

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