and there's a plentiful of reasons why...

it has been raining a little too much these days and poor health is getting really frequent this year...
felt horrible today. couldn't do anything. all i did was read and read and read.
i'm becoming more and more pessimistic because 당신은 존재하지 않는.

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it's still raining now. since i had lots of free time today, i did lots of thinking and reminiscing.
there are a few thoughts that came to me one of which how unpleasant a human is. typical of me. very.
i remembered when Charlotte vomited in the bus, the first reflex of the people around her who at first were squeezing the death out of us was to move away. sigh... i don't know. but if it was me i would have helped a stranger on the bus. really.

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and then there are memories of the nerds. how we people all have drifted apart so much that now i'm not comfortable with their presence. days where we used to go home together, wait for each other after school, it's long gone. i speak less than 5 sentences to them and and and that period of time where we enjoy the humble walks in pasir ris park. when we find joy in just sitting on a swing.

it's all different now.

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그리고 어떻게 사랑에 빠지지 약속. i tried.

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i'm not in any mood to do anything now. i really wanted someone to just...
it's okay.
hahaha, i'll go read my book now.


 당신의 존재는 나에게 천국

 

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