i miss you.

it has been years since we last spoken. there were so many things i wanted to do with you. there's so much i wish to be able to talk to you about. you were in all my stories; my favourite ones; but you left me too early.

it's so unfair. you were so much of a happy talisman.

there's so little memory we had together but yet it was all happy. it's so not fair.
i remember sitting on that swing with you, under the trees. with the best weather any day could have. i remember that day well. it was a god given day. the clouds were then, golden and cumulus . the air was light, the sun was warm. the weather was lovely.

we talked. we rambled so much but too little. we were so young then.

it was all of abundance then. now it's just an empty void.
days are no longer that bright. clouds are always grey, the air was often heavy. the sun, there wasn't much of it.

you took it all away. you sucked all the morning light, all the green in the grass. you took it all away.

please be happy. please don't leave me with nothing for no apparent reason. please be happy with all that you took away.

i love you.

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